Diapers, Poop, and our need for Confession

My kid loves a clean, dry diaper. He is miserable in a wet one. He is utterly undone by a poopy one. But clean him up and peace fills his world again. I know what that feels like. The discomfort of my own soil. Every day I have things that require cleansing. Selfish thoughts. Hurtful [...]

Remembering I’m hungry

I walked into the room and everything changed. Instantly gone were the coos and sweet smiles. Suddenly, our baby was crying. Desperately. In my absence, he had been fine. Happy. Distracted. He had been entertained by other things. By people who love and cherish him. But when he saw me, he remembered. He remembered his hunger. [...]

Making Room For Love

I don't know when Mum started the tradition, but for as long as I can remember our Christmas tree stayed up for my sister and my early January birthdays. And as far as I'm concerned, there is no good reason to take the tree down sooner. No reason at all. Absolutely none. Hear me. I need the tree [...]

Loving The Rain

Rain, rain go away. Today's rain feels like an old friend who has been gone too long but now that he's back I'm wondering why we are friends. This winter has been unusually dry. The sunshine has been glorious.  Rays in the morning fog buoying my heart. Open blue skies making me forget my cares.  [...]

Not My Best

I had all the ingredients for a major crash and burn. On Sunday, I was preaching.  On Saturday, I found myself sideswiped by a bug that left me with a string of fevers, a slow incoherent mind, a searing cough, husky voice, and screaming sinus pressure. I spent the day in miserable half-sleep instead of having [...]

Making Peace With My Life

My husband grew a beard.  Overnight. "YOU GREW A BEARD OVERNIGHT?!" I was shocked by the fuzzy face in the mirror as we brushed teeth, side-by-side. "Babe, it's been growing all week." He flashed his gorgeous smile and his eyes sparkled as he laughed at me. "Haven't you looked at me at all this week?" It [...]

Do It Anyway

Several times a year we host big get-togethers.  Summer kick-off (aka Princess birthday party in June), BBQ dinners and fire pit s'mores all summer long, TV premiere parties, movie nights, New Years Eve, Passover, Easter, Cinco de Mayo, birthdays all year round, and any other excuse we can find. "I love that you have gatherings in [...]

Dull Skies and God Rays

I love Fall morning fog.  I love the slow creeping shroud of stillness.  I love the sense of mystery it brings as it forces me to change my focal point. And, most of all, I love the backdrop fog gives to glory. "God rays" are what they're called in the graphic design world.  Incredible shafts of sunlight that shoot [...]