I hate routine but I have a daily craving

I am most alive when I’m dreaming big and taking each day as it comes.  I love creating an over-arching strategic vision and then having the freedom to invest in the vision with the unique content of the day I’m in. I’m highly productive when I am my own task master.  I’m driven and passionate when I can make the plan and then have the freedom to modify and improve the plan.  I am gifted with creativity, adaptability and entrepreneurial pioneering.

I don’t thrive in routine.  I don’t thrive in schedule.  I don’t thrive in day-after-day sameness.

Welcome to my current caged existence:
– A long-term treatment plan for a rogue  and widely misunderstood illness.  No end date. No guarantees. No strategic vision to reach for.
– A daily routine of medications and supplements.  Nine in the morning on an empty stomach. Two others that are alternated on Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays and Saturdays. Three with breakfast. Two before lunch on an empty stomach. One with lunch. Two with dinner. Five before bed on an empty stomach.
– A strict diet that has to fit in between my meds schedule. No spur of the moment delights. Just veggies and meat.  Well, mostly veggies with a little meat.
– Two small children who need to be fed, changed, loved, taught, mentored.  A husband who works long hours and is craving the big visions and crazy adventures I used to take him on.

Yet, there is a constancy that brings me life.  There is a daily habit and discipline that makes me fly.  There is a day-after-day devotion that stirs my passions like nothing else.

My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “LORD, I am coming.” (Psalm 27:8)

It’s amazing how Yahweh is the fulness of everything I crave.  He is my source.  He is my heart’s beat.

My daily Bible reading doesn’t feel like a routine.  When I don’t have that time I feel off-kilter.  I’m a flower hungry for the sun that beckons its petals to open each day.

I love doing a schedule of readings that keeps my progressing through the Bible.  I love the flow of God’s Word and the heart journey it takes me on.  And I love reading together with my church family. I love hearing what jumped from the passage to them.  I love being part of a collective journey with unique beings.

The routine that is bringing me life these days: 
– Following a daily reading plan and reading either in the morning when I first wake or at night just before sleep.
– Listening to a Pandora worship station after breakfast. The kids dance and play while I do my morning chores singing.
– Blogging about my journey and relationship with God. Keeps my eyes looking for Him moving in my life.  Keeps my heart focused on being His daughter every day.

How about you? Do you have daily time with God?  How do you read and study the Bible?  What do you do for prayer times to chat with God?  Have there been times when days, weeks or months have gone by without having time with God?  What do you do to keep connected and growing in your relationship with Him?

Want to read through the Bible with me? Today’s readings are  Psalm 51; John 3:1-36

A highlight from today’s readings: “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through him.” (John 3:16-17)

What do you think?